Money, money, money. I hate talking about it because its the one thing that makes me feel the most hypocritical. I fucking hate it. The need for it, the need to WORK for it, and our overall dependence on it. The documentary ‘Zeitgeist’ explains how the currency exchange system was one of the most ingenious magic tricks ever pulled. The working class (or former slave class) trade their time and life energy for tokens (dollars & cents) valued by the quality and quantity of the work we produce. What I’m about to say next is probably going to be a hot take, but fuck it. The saving grace of slavery is that those racist demons had to use their own currency to feed, clothe, and house the human beings they defiled and disrespected for their labor. Today, we work tirelessly and sometimes endlessly to reach ends some of us may never see, and when we ask for assistance we’re ridiculed. Sometimes, by each other.
I’ve always had a handle on fiscal responsibility. In fact, I grew up with the reputation of the family Loan Shark. And secretly, I LOVED that my family hated asking me for money. This was because I was raised watching strong women handle business forreal. My mother, grandmothers, aunts, cousins, and other role models provided positive examples for how to sustain myself. I have a strong foundation that allows me to plan ahead, save, and responsibly manage my financial obligations. But no one is perfect, as I struggle today, I watched them struggle then. Yet they rose, and yes I will rise too.
I struggle with wanting a comfortable life within this capitalistic system, whilst knowing that capital will only fulfill a small fraction of my worldly purpose and desires. The skill I would need to know in order to feel financially stable is how to purchase land, build on and maintain that land, and produce tax-paying funds with that land. Understanding how old money (european money, colonizer money) works and the deep, intrinsic way it is invested and sustained, I don't think I could feel stable with anything less. Unfortunately, I don't think any of the strong women in my life have that guidance to give. Not to say that there are not plenty of strong women who do. The material things I have now are depreciating everyday, no matter how much I like to look at them. The only legacy we can leave that will eternally maintain is the children we bear and the land we care for. Even stories of grandeur and good works will eventually fade, as memories escape and time passes.
To survive without dependency on currency is my ultimate goal. For everyone to realize that we are truly INVALUABLE. There is no dollar, diamond, car, house, vacation, or anything else that can amount to the endless, creative energy that we produce as every electric current pulses through every neuron. We are significant, priceless. We do not need money to give us value. money exists because we give it value. It is a tool misused by the elite, and abused by the depleted. I have faith we'll come to realize this yet.
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